Just Breathe!

When my daughter was in grade school (I homeschooled her) I had a bad case of vertigo. It was so bad I couldn’t even hold my head up and once I tried to sit up in bed and ended up crashing my head into my husband’s head as he was sleeping.  This is the point that finally made us realize I needed to see a doctor.  He put me on a strong medicine that pretty much knocked me out and told me I couldn’t drive for a whole month. That month I had no choice but to lay on the couch or in bed as my body recovered from the vertigo. 

I literally was put in a stop, holding pattern.  Do you know how hard it is to be in the place?  It’s like you are just in limbo waiting for the moment you can regain mobility, energy, and strength to move and hold your head and body up.  I’m not sure if physically I have ever had another moment like this. Emotionally, however, is a whole other story. 

This past year and a half have seen many moments emotionally that I felt like I couldn’t hold myself together and move forward, with my father’s fragile health, losing my mother, COVID-19 and all that brought with it. I would think, okay, things have calmed down and I can breathe and then something else would happen and I was back in limbo waiting for this moment to pass. 

I am usually a person who holds all of this inside until it bubbles up and explodes on those around me.  These last few months I have made a concerted effort to not hold everything in, because I need people to help me breathe some days.  

My husband (my best friend) knows when I need that tender hug, a special treat, a word of encouragement and love. I also have a team of co-workers who have been so generous and caring for me during this time.

Insight for today: I want to pass on to others the gift of just helping them breathe through the rough patches of life. Being generous and caring can mean the world to someone today!